Friday, November 26, 2010

Heartache and Heartbreak

So, I'm not gonna lie. I've been busy as hell, yes, busy enough I've not posted since my snippet about my Tattoo. My tattoo by the way is awesome. It feels like its apart of me, thats the way its supposed to be right? Anyway, So I've got some bad news. I've broken up with George. Its a long story, but to put it simple. I refuse to be controlled by someone. I have a life. I have friends, I go to school, I have a LIFE. I LIVE IT. What else can you ask me for? Its me. I'm Human. Your not my world. SORRY. Tough break. But you know what, I will admit, I had feelings for the guy, and after the shit that he pulled, I refuse. Everything happens for a reason, probably a reason why Samantha called me the same day I broke up with him. Right? Four years later, I still love the girl. I'm not kidding either. I've thought about her, I miss her. What else do you expect from me? I fell in love... your point? It is what it is. Things are getting colder now at school, and I went out for my first "Black Friday" shopping experience. Had a blast too. Found a lot of good clothes that will look good on me and that will be good for the cold days. Given I spend 9 months out of the year in cold. As for school, I'm ready for a full out holiday. Thanksgiving has been enough, but I'm tired of homework. I'm tired of issues and crap and drama. Junior Dads has come and gone, along with the countdown. I was happy to have officially had it. It feels so weird though. To finally be able to wear my class ring... To see that official signet on my hand.... the weight alone is foreign... I'm happy though. Everything is still falling into place. Well, here is to another month being gone!

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

Saturday, October 30, 2010

TATTOO!!

I got my tattoo!!!! that is all!






Sunday, October 24, 2010

Here goes nothing!

Well, its the end of October, and things are stressing. Last week was an easy week, but things are picking back up again. Classes are just straining, things aren't as bad now that my two term classes have ended, but it still is a lot of work. My junior thesis? Don't even ask. I've not done anything on it. What is taking up the majority of my time, is my education classes. Practicum, lesson plans, and all that jazz. Its easy, just a lot of work involved. Sadly.

Other news? The boyfriend is great, kinda going through withdraw because he can't see me often, and he was silly and physically washed his phone on Monday night, so he hasn't been able to text me or talk to me as often as he liked.

Mom got her tattoo on Tuesday :) It looks great. I'm jealous because now I want mine like sooo bad. I'm hoping to get it this weekend or soon :)

Well, thats the updates for now. Catchya later!

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Constantly Busy.... and a new boyfriend??

The past few weeks since I've updated, have just been hectic. And distracting for that matter... Distracting enough it has taken me thirty good minutes to write these two sentences...  I can't figure it out. VWIL, Work-study, Doctor appointments, my car keeps breaking, Junior Dad's coming up, Dress shopping, and the best of all.... A new Boyfriend.

What could possibly change my life even more now that it has?

Wait.... I shouldn't ask that question.... It opens the door for more change.

As for the boy, its a good change, but I'm still (after two weeks) trying to grasp the fact I'm with him.

To be dead honest... Things are rough right now. I feel like I've the world on my back and there isn't a damn thing I can do to get it off!

I think I need some time.

Friday, September 24, 2010

Another month, Gone.

Wow.... Sorry Its been forever in updating, but school is beyond hectic.

I've spent the past few weeks running around like a mad woman. Historical committee, Work study, VWIL, classes, and god knows what else! I have been going so crazy. But, good news is, we've had contra, and I had a good time with that :) It was nice getting back into the swing of things ;).

Looking forward to fall break.

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Week 3

Man, I can't believe the third week of school starts tomorrow!

We've already had a parade, class agents and god knows what else. Its been something else. Things are picking up, and its looking to be a busy semester. Practicum plus my classes? Yeesh. I forgot to add all of my VWIL commitments as well. I wonder how I will do it all.

Still waiting on the Doc's phone call. >.< I'm not liking it whatsoever. I wish they'd hurry up and get back to me.

Saturday, August 28, 2010

So Dance Like its the Last Night of your Life!

Hey everyone.

So Cadre week is over, Thank god. I've been made Historical Committee Acting CIC. (Cadet in Charge) aside from my duties as Work-study CIC. 

So I had a huge flashback today. I was at meet your Calic, and I just saw me and my scared little self from three years ago standing on that rail talking to my sister-sister nULL Hunt about who our Calic might be. To think.... n one year... I'll be a Calic myself! I can't believe it!

Even better news? The whole gang is back. My friends in PEG, the Trouble gang (those of us in VWIL... Mia, May, Casey... (Three of us were already back. We were waiting on May ;) ) 

Hung out with the PEG gang this evening, that was great, Indian food, sexual jokes, and god knows what else. The normalcy was great! :-) I missed that a lot.

Classes start on Monday, I'm excited! : ) 19 credit hours, but its class! Finally! My escape from VWIL! 

So, I'm going to go swap my laundry, (because someone can't move there shit outta the dryer in a decent time) and play my games.


Sunday, August 22, 2010

So it begins....

Cadre Week. Day one.

Not as hectic as I expected, but I still had stuff to do.

The poor nullies are terrified. You can see it on there faces as you walk around the parade deck today. Some of them had JROTC experience, and know what they semi sorta doing. The rest.... Clueless. I find it amusing.... but, I can't say much, I've been there and done the whole cadre week thing. I don't miss it.

Tomorrow, we start the nULL issue process. Moving everything to the SAC. Fun shit.... Not really.

I'm just trying to get a good nights sleep.... all night. Its hard to even get 8 hours of sleep right now. Early Mornings and Late nights... I sure as hell don't miss it.

But anyway. Off here and relaxing a bit till i can fall asleep again

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Two Zero!

Twenty Years.

If I was a Dog, I'd be 200 years old.

Damn.

I've seen my fair share in my lifetime. I've hit rock bottom, and climbed back up. I've been hurt (literally and physically), beat up, bruised and god knows what else. But I'm glad to say I've accomplished things in my life.


I had totally mean't to post this almost a week ago, but I've had no time to finish editing it much less think about what to end with. I can finally think! I've been busting my ass all week long since Monday (my birthday) afternoon and I can finally rest! We have the morning off, and I can sleep, rest, and relax. Nothing to do till tomorrow until at least 1300, which is a damn good thing! :D 

So, as for the rest of the night, read a little bit of the book Casey let me, and then a little bit of fun stuff to do until bed. :D

Friday, August 13, 2010

Early Return and PCOS

So... Good news or bad news first?

Eh, Good news first is best I suppose. I get to return to MBC on Sunday instead of Monday. Yayness!

Bad news.... The Doc thinks I have PCOS (Poly-cystic Ovarian Syndrome) and went to get blood tests today.... almost fainted. That sucked. I'm still lightheaded and outta sorts in my head. But I have been able to drive clearly and run my errands. Hopefully a good meal tonight will set me straight. Babysitting tomorrow then off to MBC Sunday!

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Four Days and a Wake up till BALDWIN!!! Whoohoo!

Alright, well... I know its been a little over two weeks since I last posted, given that my last post was four days till home, well now its four days and a wake up then I am officially Home! MBC Baby! I'm sooo excited!

As for right now, I'm at Caseys house in Williamsburg for a little R&R before I head back to Beaverdam for a few hectic days at home then off to MBC First thing monday morning! Yayness!

I'm all packed and rearing to go!

Did I Mention i bought my car? :D I did

'97 Ford Taurus. 165k miles, and my baby! I need a name for her though. Shes dark green, so any ideas? Shoot em at me sometime.

Alright well I'm off here. See ya at MBC!

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Four Days! :D

Wow... I can't believe it. Homebound to Virginia in four days. I'm so happy and excited its starting to annoy Casey and May and probably everyone else I talk too. I keep wanting to repeat myself when i say I'm excited.

Anyway. This summer has sure been an adventure, and its not over yet! It feels like it though. Its weird, but hey, two summers? I think that sounds good. One here and one with mom. I like the idea.

Did i mention I'm a week away from getting a car? OMG! I'm so excited! Hahah there i go repeating myself again.

19 days and a wake up till MBC and my big 20th birthday! God... i'm getting old. I've lived in three decades (90's, 2000 and 2010), I have a nephew (alec), a neice (unknown), and well... I'm a Junior in college....

Holy shit.

I'm a Junior....

I never thought i'd see the day. Momma always told me "set your mind to something and you can do it" and guess what, so far so good. Just gotta graduate and get into grad school now. Masters Degree here I COME! Man, what a fast track. Everything is moving by. Soon enough, I'll be a senior, with nullies, and graduation around the corner.... Its unbelievable. Never thought I'd make it.

I had/have help though. VWIL, MBC, the support system of my Big(s)/Jedi Master ;) and all that jazz. Mia, May, Casey... Couldn't have made it without them. I will say, I've had the time of my life and MBC, oh... and my life IS Baldwin. lol. I've had nothing but a world at Baldwin that I can call my own. And it just continues! So excited. Junior year, my car, tattoo, photography opportunities, acting, the opportunities are endless, and this is only the beginning!


Kable Courtyard, Mary Baldwin College, Staunton, VA

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Seven Days and LeAnn Rhimes!

Seven Days! Wow. So close to being home! I can't wait!

As for the LeAnn Rhimes part. I went to a Concert last night, 20 feet from the stage, ten bucks. Got to see the one and only LeAnn Rhimes singing live! I took Video and got her to wave at me once! She sang happy birthday to a girl to turned twelve, it was cute. Sang an exclusive, (not sure the name) that hasn't been released yet. On CD or single yet. But it was a good song! (Warned Me was what i call it)


Seven DAYS! Shipping stuff home then a few more days of work and Homeward bound!

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

13 Days! OMG!

YAY! 13 Days left! I'm soooo excited to be going home! I miss Virginia sooo much! And MBC. I keep looking at my pictures of the Valley and of MBC and I just want to go walking around my campus again taking photos!

Oh i miss it so much, Baldwin is SO beautiful this time of year, and I wish, just wish that I could be there taking photos. :D Breathing the clean mountain air. Oh god I miss it.

Soon... Very soon. :D It will be a great birthday present!


Tuesday, July 13, 2010

19 Days and a Wake up :D

19 days!

I can't wait! Soon to go home, soon to buy my car, soon the last piece of this summers puzzle is going to fit perfectly into place. And then back to Baldwin on my birthday! Its great! I miss home. Honestly! But then again, if your my friend and your reading this... then your probably going... "No shit. You've said that already... Like a thousand times!" I needed to update, so I updated. Sorry its breif, but i gotta head home. Load of laundry waiting on me, and chilling with the neighbors and Covert Affairs at 10pm! :D

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Halfway Done - And the Death in the family....

So... I figure the title says it all.

My Uncle Mike passed away this morning. It hurts too. He was my Uncle.

I know my Dad is hurting bad though. So is my Aunt Kathy. I can hear it in their voices.

I still gotta work again tomorrow though.

Thats the sucky part....

We don't know when his memorial is going to be...

Not soon enough though... He's getting cremated, and according to the family, the minister they want is unavailable for the next two weeks. So... no memorial... for a while. Which to me... is disrespectful. But his wife has the reigns on this one. So be it.

As for me... well. Four more weeks. Then I'm home to Virginia. :) Happy day's that will be.

I've got 1400$ saved up. Its pretty amazing. I'm excited.

So. Thats really all i want to type... so I will catch ya'll later.

Text me.

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Day (no idea)- Wishing for home

So, I'm sitting here at dad's bosses house, while they are away on vacation, house sitting. I might add that I'm also spending more time here because Dad is just flat out annoying?

Anyway. A basic update from the last update, which looks to be about a week n a half ago. I worked at the resturaunt for two hours the next day. Pitful... when i could have made 120 at the plant. Lets just put it simple. i don't work there anymore.

I've been working at the plant mostly every other day and this past week... every day. I'm wiped and blew my knee out this morning so I called in sick.. It still aches, but I can work tomorrow. I've also got 1100$ saved up for the car so far! :D I'm so happy.

I leave NoLA on the 2nd of August, around 8am. Plane flight. 1st time. It will be interesting.

My delimma... My fish. Felix. I need to get him back. Somehow... I'll figure it out. Damnit.

Anyway. I work tomorrow. Ttyl

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Day 11 - Missing my Girls

Day 11 - June 2nd, 2010

Today was a good day. Dad woke me up so I could drive him to work. I came back and went back to bed. Spent last night with the boy-toy, ;) Make your own assumptions, I will not post anything with a worse rating that PG13. Chilled after I officially woke up for the day till I had training at the restaurant. Which didn't last long, but i got to bring home dinner, which was nice, and free. :D Then just spent the rest of the day, relaxing and hanging out. I liked it. I felt like I've had a day off work. But I work tomorrow at 10am. So its a busy day :D. I also, if Scott bumps me up to full time, will more than likely, leave my job at the restaurant for him, unless I can convince her to let me work after 4pm. Spare change if you may.

Anyway, Just a quick update. Now off to bed.

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Day 9 & 10 - Busting Ass

Day 9 & 10 - May 31st and June 1st, 2010

May 31st -

Well, I spent the day in my bed, hacking my brains out. Reading what I could. And playing on Facebook for the rest. A good day off.

June 1st -

Woke up this morning to my Dad telling me to get my ass up and moving, cause I got called into work. I worked hard... 6 am to 4 pm. I'm aching, thats for sure.

Plus side to that, I just made 120$ in a day. :D I also have 400 Dollars setting aside for the car :D Its awesome.

Boytoy wants to hang out tonight too. And to be honest. I'm tempted. ;) Why the hell not after all? Im still thinking about it, cause I need dinner.

Sorry for the breif update. Not much else to talk about.

Sunday, May 30, 2010

Day 8 - I ain't no Cinderella!

Day 8 - May 30th, 2010

So today my day started bright and early... and more than likely end early as well.

I was up at 0300 from lack of air-flow no thanks to my sinuses, and this sore throat. I really had to be up at 0400 so I could go take care of the dogs I'm pet sitting, and still get breakfast and be to work on time.

It was a hardcore bust ass day... and I'm sore. Its been a while. I will say I felt like Cinderella with a Hard-hat, and boots, just no apron. My thumb knuckle is bruised from frequent use of a broom against it. Blisters and calluses adorn my hands, rubbing and almost blisters riddle my feet and ankles. What have I gotten into? I was drenched by 730 with sweat, and I swear my clothes got heaver and heavier with soot and sweat as the day wore on. Sorry for the gruesome details, but tis true! Mind you, this is also only one job! I have three! I'm house sitting occasionally for dad's friend, then add Cargill, and Connie's opens up on Wednesday, and I'm basically an Assistant chef there. It's insane!

Good beginning to the summer and job's though! Gotta save it. All the money I get. Yeap. Gotta get it all in the bank where I cannot touch it.

That was the good news.

The bad news?

I'm not getting any better with this sickness. I can hardly talk today. And it hurts to do so as well.  >.<

Well, thats the NoLA update, so I'm going to tune into the race, and relax for a bit till I crash.

Saturday, May 29, 2010

Day 7 - UPDATE!

So I have scored two jobs today!

I'm working part time at the Cargill Factory cleaning, and mostly full time at Connie's Restaurant down here as a chef/server. Thanks big time to Trevor Nordquist for all the experience at the Henry Clay Inn Restaurant in A-town!

I start at cargill tomorrow at 0600.

Day 6 & 7 - Boredom Settles In

Day 6 & 7 - May 28th and 29th, 2010

So I've officially fallen into the bored category for the summer. I spent yesterday at PJ's Coffee till I decided I needed to go out and do more applications. Which ended up being around 1pm. I've lost count of the amount of applications I've put in. And lost track of all who I applied too. Got back to the house a little after three and then  resumed reading another book, the Silver Flame By Hannah Howell. Good book, Highly recommend. Except it was easily predicted. The book i read the night before though, had me guessing till the very end. Highland Captive. Same author. But it had me guessing consistently. Hannah Howell is so far one of my favorite romance novelists with all her Highlander Romance, but I am straying from my lovely romances to read a few different books on the list. Not sure what they are called till I start reading them.

POA for today? Well, I already took dad to work, although it was a pain just rolling out of bed. My throat is icky again, and i stayed up all night hacking my brains out. So hopefully this goes away and soon. Thank you GB, for giving me whatever you had. Very respectfully, of course.

Also, Job interview at some point today. Dad has hooked me up with a Job (hopefully) at his work, and it pays good, 10 hours a day, 6 days a week, for 12 bucks an hour. Untaxed (1099) paycheck (^.^) I'm excited, and hopefully I get the job. Cause it would mean I'd have enough for my vehicle in about 2 weeks, and enough for car insurance the week after that. Then the rest into savings for school and the trip home. Pray for my luck that I get it!

After that, I may start working a bit today, If not start tomorrow (hopefully, knock on wood)

This would also mean less time to update the blog. Less time for Facebook, which doesn't kill me anyway, and ten times easier for loosing weight and eating right. Which is already decently easy. Not much to eat here, so I pick and choose what is good for me to eat. Running every night has been also, much easier than I expected. I block out an hour of my day to go running around the neighborhood loop across the street from the house. Though, I've taken two days off from it.

Well, I'm off here for the day. Back to playing till this job interview.

Friday, May 28, 2010

Day 5 - Annoyances

Day 5 – May 27th, 2010

Woke up today in a foul mood and easily aggravated and sick… Didn’t help that Randall called me at 9 am and woke me up, and kept texting me like a mad-man throughout the morning. I told him I didn’t want to see him yesterday afternoon cause I was feeling like crap and sick. Then Lacey was texting me for randall and other things. I just wanted to be left alone. I miss my alone time. I can shut myself up in my room and not be bothered. Did a little bit more on the job applications. Still no phone calls though.

The best part of this whole mess, I could not sleep to save my life. Even with my melatonin. So I spent most of my evening reading my book then just restlessly lying in bed. I hated it.

Sorry for this one being short. Not much to talk about except me bitching about being annoyed.

That, and the fact I was not afraid to say what I wanted to be heard. I.e. See below ;)


P.s. I miss all my girls at Baldwin... May, Monroe, Starry, Smith, Sandifur.... Everyone who kept me sane. 

Sending my love from the Bayou!

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Day 4 - Getting sick (>.<)

Day 4 – May 26th, 2010

Today was a different kinda day. I didn’t go to bed till around 130 last night, woke up at about 930. Just proof that I need to keep to taking my meds and getting to bed at a decent time to get the amount of sleep I need. Got to functioning after a shower and reading a little bit, and then walked over to PJ’s at around 12. I hung out here till around 3 when I headed back because dad was going to be home around 315ish, and I walked in about 2 minutes before he did. Oh, did I mention I woke up this morning with the largest hickey on my neck no thanks to Randall? Yeah, seriously! He’s a good kisser and great with his hands, and is coming over later tonight.

On another note, I keep waking up with a sore throat and cannot talk much. It’s also getting harder and harder to soothe it as well. (>.<) I will be okay eventually.

After my run today, which was short, intentionally, I cooked spaghetti for Lacey, Randall and Dad this evening and Randall was here when I got back from a quick run to the store. Found that funny as hell, and hilarious. That poor boy, I think he’s got the hotts for me and he just thinks he understands me when I say boy-toy. He knows that I’m just looking for a good time and that’s it. I’m not going to stay any longer than august 12th at the LATEST. Nor will I be coming back. I may come back for a short vacation later on in life, but when I say I’m here for a good time, I mean it. Honestly. Sent him home around 8ish so I could relax and read a little bit before I take my meds.

This is a short one, but back to my book and then crashing for the night cause I’ve got a lot of work to do tomorrow with more job applications. Still no call backs. But hoping for one soon. 

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Day 3 - New boytoy?

Day 3 – May 25th, 2010

Today, I hung out most of the day at the coffee shop after driving dad to work at 0600 and coming back to the house and crashing again till 1100. I enjoy hanging out there, and hopefully will make it a daily adventure, to get me out and about and not just chilling around in my room here at 400b Bradford Dr. La Place, LA 70069. Then I had to go pick up dad at 1500 from work, so my time was cut short significantly, out of the amount of time I wished to have spent there. After that, dad went to the library, and I stayed around, read a bit, went for a 2mile or more bike ride, got back to the house, dad wasn’t home, so I made my own dinner, then heard a crack of thunder and went outside to see it, and found the old man outside bullshitting with a few people on the back end of the truck. Paul, who lives next door with his sister, and Lacey, who lives down the road with a friend of hers, who apparently had checked me out yesterday when I had gone off on my run. Not that I’m complaining, I went over to their place and hung out. While I was there, I met the guy who “checked me out” and ended up making out with him, and he then left a HUGE ass hickey on my neck. I’m not going to lie, he’s a damn good kisser, and I’ve officially learned a few new triggers of mine! ;) It’s looking like I’ve got a summer beau (but nothing more i assure you) and even then, lacey apparently has the hotts for me too, but I’m going... yeah maybe not, sorry gurl. I’m honestly not that into women anymore… sorry those who like me. Got back to the house around midnight, cause I didn’t want to stay over at his house. I thought that was a little too much for the first roundabouts of meeting him. He’s shy, and a sweetheart, I really don’t want to get “attached” for the sake I don’t plan on coming back. Not much to write today… didn’t really do much to talk about except for meeting Randall. 

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Day 2 - The Job Hunt

Day 2 – May 24th, 2010

Second day here in New Orleans, aka, La Place, Louisiana. I’ve so far spent the day searching for jobs once I woke up and got moving. Dad is determined to break me of my habit of saying the F-word when I can. It’s not like I use it ALL the time… but he ain’t going to break the habit. I use it around friends and in my own ways. I don’t use it in most public places and especially in the work place. But anyway, enough of my bitching, and back to the day; Food is minimal around here, which is fine; I don’t need to be eating a killer amount, anyway. Internet doesn’t exist at the house, so if I want to blog or facebook, I’m going to need to make a daily trip over to PJ’s coffee to get my fix. Which doesn’t bother me none, but will suck once I start working. I actually got a damn good amount of sleep last night. Took my meds around nine-ish and passed out hardcore just before nine thirty, and woke up at 930 this morning feeling really well rested. Twelve hours of hardcore sleep works for me! I hope it happens often. I’ve discovered I like to be left alone, unless I’m with friends. I’m a huge loner. I’ve discovered I enjoy the quietness of my room; Just me and my music, and on occasion, my books, or TV when I’m at Baldwin. What else would I do? Felix and I are faring well here, and he’s being the active over bouncy and goofy fish I know every day. So he definitely took the trip well.

The dryer doesn’t work here, so I’ve had to result to laying my laundry out to dry so I at least have some clean clothes. I wore my VWIL shorts and my old 2008 senior tee around today, and my kerchief with pirates and camo, and dad got upset with me for applying for jobs that way. I was like whatever dad. I can do as I want. People around here know I’m new. And the only friendly people that I’ve actually chatted with are those two nice ladies at the home depot when I was asking about applications.

I still need to go for my run today, and dad wants to come with me. I’m like, whatever; I’m going to do my own thing. I love the old man to death, but I’m tired of hearing things like “I’m proud of you” or “I love you” I know this, and he has every right to say it, but I just don’t need to hear it five times a day every day. It’s A-noying. I like just being able to sit in peace and quiet. He doesn’t need to know my every doing either. I’m a grown kid, and I’m only in this house for three things: Food, bed, and roof. Enough said. I can get my own job, and soon enough, hopefully a car.

Speaking of which; there is a pretty red Pontiac with racing decals along the side for sale here, 1K or best offer. It’s a little (of course it’s a slight exaggeration) beaten up, manual (looked to be 5 speed), racing seats (driver and passenger), but overall looking to be in a decent condition. It’s the cheapest priced vehicle I’ve seen here. I probably will offer them 700 or 800 depending on how much I make and how fast. I won’t go above 850 though, with the damage in the vehicle. I’m going to call on the car once I get a job and a steady paycheck. I’ve got ten weeks to make at least 1500 bucks.

Well, time to go get the old man off his ass and get over to the track so I can run and do my PT for the day. It’s looking like its cooled down a bit, but who cares? By the time we get back, It will be shower and read time till bed at 2100. Then med’s and pass out time!

Night!

Monday, May 24, 2010

Summer 'oh ten!

New Orleans, La.
Day 1 – May 23, 2010

And so it begins.

Well, I’m here. Got in at 6am local time (least that’s when I looked at my phone for time). That would have been 7am Virginia time. For those who don’t know, Louisiana is an hour behind east coast time… Yea, I see daylight after you guys. 

Anyway, onto the story…

So far, its 3 pm. And I’ve yet to have a meal all day. So far, Dad and I have spent the afternoon driving about looking at the area so I’m a bit familiarized with it. So far, it’s great! Beautiful, but it’s not Staunton. I will always love Staunton, its home to me. J The lake that’s not too far away (Lake Ponce’train [sp?]) is beautiful, and dad says it’s over 28 miles wide. And to be dead honest, you look over and can’t see the other side, so I believe him. The only (>.<) part of the lake that I dislike, is that there are huge power lines going through it… Couldn’t they have just let it alone? But anyway, that’s unimportant. After we went around town, we went to the library, I checked out a couple of books, hopefully some good ones, but they are for the lazy days around here that I want to read. Lord knows I will have them. After that, got back to the house, and started officially unpacking. All of my stuff survived the trip, including Mr. Felix (The fish). Felix took the trip much better than I expected. But the jam jar dad brought from grandma’s house served its purpose and I have every intention of utilizing it again. My room is organized to how I want it, and the laundry is started. Dinner consisted of rice, red beans (Ick! >.<), green apple slices (which I didn’t touch) and strawberries, which I devoured. Overall, dinner wasn’t the greatest for a meal, but it worked… If I had my way, I probably would have never eaten anyway… I still hadn’t been hungry. After all that work was done, I went for a run around the block. Found a pretty little place just across the road away from the city that I’ve officially decided is my hideaway spot if necessary. For a mile to mile-n-a half run (give or take) after not running since April long distances due to my injury and just taking it easy, I felt good. Still feel good. I’ll probably be sore in the morning, but its good stuff for that, and I will do it all again tomorrow. I will lose the weight I need to for the Army, I want in, and I will get in. Plans for tomorrow? Job hunt. Finish Laundry. PT x2. Send out book from May-term for refund. Read a book.

May 21st-22nd update:

Travis just didn’t work… not happening. It’s a long story, but in any essentials, all he was out for was ass. And became over obsessive when I didn't respond after i made him leave. I texted him back early yesterday morning (around 5am local time), and told him in the longest of terms, to shove off. I think the text was over 15 texts long? It was a bit. Took me a good 30 minutes to think of all the big terms I wanted to use to confuse him. But, good news. Crazy bastard isn't talking to me anymore! Yayyyyyy! Piece of advice to all you girls out there dating online, Don't believe anything a man tells you over a text. Meet him in daylight, in a public place. Enough said. If you don't, have a friend tag along. 

 Change of Command orders for all returning Cadets: Leave of absence till 1300 26AUG10. (But as for me… I get to return on the 16th.) Seniors: Dismissed from the corps. Congrats 2010, You did it!

Enjoying the wonderful day outside!

Friday, May 21, 2010

End of Term, End of Academic Year, End of Teenage... What else is it the end of?

So, Its the end of Term... And the end of the year. Wow... Just wow... I still can't believe I'm academically a Junior. I've got all my grades, all A's and B's (aside from one downer but nothing to be depressed about). My GPA still went up by .2 (from a 2.2 to a 2.4!). The goal is to be at a 3.0 at the start of Senior year. Thats gonna be a hard one, but I aim to do it.

Not only that, but in less that four months... I'm not a teenager anymore... I hit the big Two Zero. August... The day I return to VWIL. Fun... Just fun. My 20th birthday is on the same day I have to be back at Baldwin. Hey, Its a good birthday present, cause lord knows i'm going to miss this place and the mountains. New Orleans will be flat... Ugh, flat. Anyway.

We've got D&C Practice in less than an hour, So I sadly, have to cut this short, cause I need to get back and change.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Love... What is it?

I know I posted the following earlier, but it kinda goes with the topic.

1 Corinthians 13:4-7


"Love is patient, love is kind. Love is not jealous, it does not brag, and it is not proud. Love is not rude, is not selfish, and does not become angry easily. Love does not remember wrongs done against it. Love is not happy with evil, but is happy with truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails."


Just a few moments ago, I got a text from Travis, and mind you, I like this guy... A lot. I've not met him yet, and it was by chance. Honestly. I had signed on to Plentyoffish.com to delete my profile. I said "Oh, what the hell, lets see who's new." and happened across him and started talking the next day. Surprise surprise! Now like I said, I like this guy, a lot. But you want to talk about scaring the shit outta a girl before you even meet her? Tell her you're falling for her when you've only spent two weeks texting her and one evening on the phone... Seriously.  It's just luck that I meet this guy when I did. I want things to work out with him. I pray they do, but don't scare me off by telling me that after two weeks... and after you stood me up on a date once, and I've yet to meet you! 


Can you honestly be in love with someone you've never met? 


I mean, I like this guy, he makes me smile every day, calls me beautiful and all these sweet names. Is dead honest with me, and respects everything I ask of him. And he's dying to meet me. What more can a girl ask for? After I sent him a text back saying basically I don't want to be hurt and I don't want to hurt him either, he responded with this: "I know and I have been hurt before too, and I would never hurt you because if i had the chance with you I would be the Prince and you would be my Princess"


Can I just cry right now?


You know how long I've been waiting to meet a guy like this? I thought it was impossible, chivalry had to be dead, because I'm a hopeless romantic and that just swept me off my feet. What am I supposed to do? This guy makes me smile every day. Say's "Good Morning Beautiful" when I wake up and say good morning, and wishes me the sweetest dreams when I go to bed. He always asks me what I want. Me! Nonetheless! Half the time I don't know what to respond to this guy, cause he is so sweet. I just want to giggle and smile all day! Talking on the phone last night and waking up this morning to a text saying "Good Morning Beautiful" just did it for me. It made my day... I had the biggest shit-faced grin on all day. I can't wait to meet him on Friday... 


I'm so excited and scared and nervous... Its like I'm a silly little teenager about to go on her first date. Dear lord, help me! 



09-10 School year = Over!

So, I've officially completed my time as a Sophomore. I'm academically a Junior. In three days time, I will be headed down to New Orleans, LA. Well, in all reality, I'm going to be in La Place, but close enough. I can see the city, and probably ride by bike to it if I wanted too. But hell, the fact of the matter is... I took my May Term Final this morning in less than an hour, with zip studying done last night, due to distractions and exhaustion. It didn't help that Travis called and woke me out of almost being asleep. But hey... he wasn't the only one, so who cares? I actually had several *knock knock* rap against my door last night and very unexpectedly. But none with very important reasons. 


I'm a Junior.


I can't believe it. I've busted my ass this year, got yelled at, did an amazing show with the girls in Theatre producing Macbeth Ph.D, been stressed beyond the max, gotten pissed off at professor's, lost friendships, been in and out of relationships, and god knows what else. It's been one helluva year. And the best thing, I wouldn't change it for the world. :D 


I just had to put that out there.


Oh, and this is just food for thought. :D


1 Corinthians 13:4-7

"Love is patient, love is kind. Love is not jealous, it does not brag, and it is not proud. Love is not rude, is not selfish, and does not become angry easily. Love does not remember wrongs done against it. Love is not happy with evil, but is happy with truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails."





Monday, May 17, 2010

Friends: Who are they?

So real quick, since I've got class in 2.5. 


Sitting in the Library this morning writing a paper really quick for class this afternoon, I found myself sitting caddy-corner to a ex-friend of mine from freshman year. And by ex friend I mean she and I were really close for the longest time. And then something happened. Don't ask me what, but she just stopped talking to me. I said hello one day and she didn't respond. So I was like wtf. It's been 5 months since then. I don't find myself missing the friendship though, which is odd in all sense of the world. Normally, when I have a friendship like that it burns to be back-stabbed for no reason. Once upon a time, I could have counted on her for that friendship I so treasure, and now I look, and wonder what the hell happened, but I'm not broken over it. I just had to toss that out there. 


It's a weird life I live.


But on the other hand, Travis had a legit excuse, and I forgave him, and he is going to try and come up before i leave for NEW AWILNS on Saturday after change of command. 


4 days and a wake up till NOLA!

Sunday, May 16, 2010

Phone Call

Okay, So I know I just posted, but I had to put this out there... A chick I know from high school just up and called me and like the first thing she did was ask me back out (we dated about two years ago for a week in high school). Why me!? I told her 5 months ago No, I hooked her up with a girl I know here at School, and that just ended. Seriously, I'm not even sure I'm still into this girl. I'm 20 years old, and I want to see guys. I'm not a lesbian. I'm Bisexual, but more straight. Honest to god. I'm not good with most long distance relationships, and I'm not sure I want to carry one on with her. I'm spending my summer out of state! Ten weeks starting Saturday! It doesn't help that I'm pretty certain I'm still not over my ex-girlfriend as it is, AND I'm talking to men now, not even females.

Help!



1st blog

Okay, well. This is starting off the blog. I intend to use this blog to talk about my doings, mainly this summer since I really won't have any connection to the world I know during this summer. This is basically so I can update you guys (those this is intended for) on what I'm doing this summer. 


Otherwise, its Sunday night, and I was supposed to have a date today, but he lost his phone, and couldn't come up. :( I wasn't too happy about it and was continuously growing frustrated with him, until he texted me and explained. I forgave him after that, and he is really interested in me, and I am interested in him, even though he's not taller than me (maybe an inch taller). I really hope that he is able to come up this week before I leave. I don't want to spend two months anxiously awaiting to meet this guy. Seriously, I like him just by talking to him daily. I know I'm a sap for romance, but I'm also looking for love. The odd thing is I had intended to delete my profile when I signed onto POF, but ended up meeting him and another guy, but I hit it off with him really fast. 


Well, I really need to get to my homework and still take my drugs so I can sleep.


Farewell!




Me at my sisters grad