Summer... Week One

So, Its May 28th, almost the 29th, and there is only a few days left in this wonderful spring month. Spring... Right, the thing that is supposed to be kinda warm outside, and chilly at night. Nope, not in the wonderful city of Richmond. it is Hot as Blazes out there, I mean, the heat, I can adjust to.... the Humidity... Now that I have a problem with. It is the humidity that makes this weather so unbearable! It is a wonder how we have survived in this mess! I blame the city life and all the cars! I want to go back to my valley, where there is the mountain breeze, the cool rivers, and best of all, the view. Here in Richmond, its flat basically... I mean, there are the hills, but its not my Mountains. I like to be able to perch myself up high, and look down at all the busy ants (people) at work. It makes me feel free almost. Tonight, I was driving home, and the sunset was so pretty. I wished I could have done that. I wanted to find a hill, overlooking a clear field or pond, hop up on the roof of my car, and just watch the sun go down. I have a feeling, soon, very soon, I am going to need an escape and do exactly that. Its only the first Saturday of 'summer' vacation, and I am already killer busy, and trying to find time to even breath is hard. Not that I am complaining, but finding two jobs within days of each other? Both of their training times are already falling over each other, and its like.... wait.... time... breath... what?                      Today felt like the biggest scramble... but it was honestly the most organized... Tomorrow though... That one is going to be rough. But its going to have to be worked through, and I will do it. I'm scared about my classes though. I'm struggling to keep up in the once class that I already have assignments for, and that only makes me wonder what I'm going to have to do when my week long seminar class rolls into town in July and takes up my whole week. Man, finding time to be myself, and be social, much less personal time... is going to be hard. But... who am I to complain right? I have a summer job, two none the less, unlike some, and its something I shouldn't take for granted. Ah... the lovely lessons learned in life. Aren't they beautiful?   Well, I have work at 0600, so I'm hitting the sack, because I need sleep before a 0430 wake up... Its been a while since i had to be up THAT early.

Hello World....

Dream Big

DREAM BIG

If there were ever a time to dare,
to make a difference,
to embark on something worth doing,
it is now.
Not for any grand cause, necessarily --
but for something that tugs at your heart,
something that's your aspiration,
something that's your dream.

You owe it to yourself to make your days here count.
Have fun.
Dig deep. 
Stretch.

Dream big.

Know though, that things worth doing seldom come easy.
There will be good days.
And there will be bad days.
There will be times when you want to turn around,
pack it back up, and call it quits.
Those times tell you that you are pushing yourself,
That you are not afraid to learn by trying.

Persist.

Because with an idea,
determination, and the right tools,
you can do great things.
Let your instincts,
your intellect,
and your heart guide you.

Trust.

Believe in the incredible power of the human mind.
Of doing something that makes a difference.
Of working hard.
Of laughing and hoping.
Of lazy afternoons.
Of lasting friends.
Of all the things that will cross your path this year.

The start of something new brings the hope of something great.
Anything is possible.
There is only one you.
And you will pass this way only once.

Do it right.

~Author Unknown

A few Book Excerpts to read

I AM ONLY ONE

I am only one, but I am one.
I can't do everything, but I can do something.
And what I can do, I ought to do.
And what I ought to do, by the grace of God, I shall do.

Edward Everett Hale



"It is not enough to get things done; they must be done right." ~ Arthur T. Hadley



"As you endure this divine discipline, remember that God is treating you as his own children. Who ever heard of a child who is never disciplined by its father?... No discipline is enjoyable while it is happening -- it's painful! But afterward there will be a peaceful harvest of right living for those who are trained this way." ~ Hebrews 12:7, 11



YOU ARE AT THE TOP WHEN...

1. You have made friends with your past, and you are focused on the present and optimistic about your future.
2. You have the love of friends and the respect of your enemies.
3. You are filled with faith, hope, and love, and you live without anger, greed, guilt, envy, or thoughts of revenge.
4.You know that failure to stand up for what is morally right is the prelude to being the victim of what is criminally wrong
5. You are mature enough to delay gratification and shift your focus from your rights to your responsibilities.
6. You love the unlovable, give hope to the hopeless, friendship to the friendless, and encouragement to the discouraged.
7. You know that a success doesn't make you and that a failure doesn't break you.
8. You can look back in forgiveness, forward in hope, down in compassion, and up with gratitude.
9. You are secure in who you are, so you are at peace with God and in fellowship with humanity.
10. You clearly understand that yesterday ended last night, that today is a brand-new day, and it is yours!
11. You know that "he who would be the greatest among you must become servant of all"
12. You are pleasant to the grouchy, courteous to the rude, and generous to the needy, because you know that the long-term benefits of giving and forgiving outweigh the short-term benefits of receiving.
13. You recognize, confess, develop, and use your God-given physical, mental and spiritual abilities to the glory of God and for the benefit of humankind.
14. You stand in front of the Creator of the universe, and he says to you, "Well done, my good and faithful servant."


And Finally....


Excellence

Going far beyond the call of duty,
Doing more than others expect, 
This is what excellence is all about!
And it comes from striving,
Maintaining the highest standards,
Looking at the smallest detail,
And going the extra mile.
Excellence means doing your very best.
In everything! In every way.

~Jack Johnson

April showers, bring May flowers... or is it march?

So... it's finally April.

Less than two weeks, and its Finals, three weeks and its may term... two months... Change of command and the end of Jr year.... Summer comes around, and three online courses, a job, and whatever else trouble I can get into... or stay out of.

I'm ready for May term (aka Play Term"). Its only so close... My last history class till Senior sem, and then I'm done with my major. Folk Dance, my last fun class till Maymay leaves :( I don't like it.

The sad part of my years end... I don't have a vacation. I'm taking three summer courses, that start almost immediately after the years end.

I don't know what to do about it anymore... its all so scary.

Spring Break... In the beginning of March?

So... its Thursday, and our spring break is already half way over! I wish it wasn't. It is also raining today... How nasty. I would mind the sun being out, and it being warm, with a little breeze, then I would go lay out in the lawn, read my books for my paper, and relax my day away. Oh but no... it has to rain today, which makes the ground soggy, and makes every girl in her right mind want to curl up and sleep her day away! Makes you want to sing "Raining on Sunday" by Keith Urban.

Whats new in my life? Hah, well, shit. Did I tell you all about what happened with PEG in January? I don't think I did. Well, to sum up, I wasn't allowed to have my friendships with them, because apparently I was harassing them? Yeah, complete Bullshit. Just saying. But to finish my lovely sum up, Someone advocated for my cause after finding out, and the punishment was lifted, but I have been "cautioned to remain at a distance". Like I care anymore.
Oh, and Softball? Yeah, screw that too... got booted off last month. So much for that.
Another thing... I have a Stalker. I pray it hasn't found my blog yet, but who the hell knows anymore. I'm tired of it all, and what its causing me. Its just another repeat of high school.
Samantha is back in VA. I had planned to go visit her today, but I still have yet to receive a phone call. So, who knows if that is going to happen either. I really hope she does, but who knows about hopes anymore...

Nowadays its work and work and work. School, school, school. Thats all I do.

Speaking of which. Back to work on that paper of mine :)

The Results are in!

Hey everyone! I hope your all's Monday's have been well. Mine has been pretty good. Its been a short weekend, but eventful. I spent Friday night out with the girls, which was nice, I needed it. I may have not have said much and wasn't very social, but I didn't need to be alone. I spent my night crafting the nULL classes class guideon, and presented it to them on Saturday after fakeout. Then I left for home to meet mom n me's new puppy Zena! She's so precious! I've already started basic training with her. Mainly working with the standard command of sit and No. No, so she understands what is not right to do. And Sit, well... it was a work in progress so that she understands the concept of treats. She's a fast learner, even at a young age. It's great.
Found out leadership for senior year today, and I got what I wanted. nC and HC. I'm content with that. I finally got nC. :) HC is mine again, because of the work that i've done this year with it, and the movement forward. Its all progress nowadays. Well, I figured a quick blog, now off to bed :)

Another day, Another Dollar

Well, Its been a few weeks since my last post. Things have been really busy. Especially with softball now. I've been working hard to keep up with my school-work, classes, and even participating in softball.

Softball has been great. I feel like I'm learning something, working hard, and I really enjoy it. It's tough, but I like a good challenge. This is a challenge I feel I can compete with. I know most of the basic's and, i suppose you could call it theory, behind the game. I just need to fine tune my skills into that set versus my knowledge in baseball. I feel I can be good in it if I applied myself properly.

As for me personally? My moods have changed, I reflect back on my days mostly, and I find I'm not complaining as much as I did once, probably also a big thanks to the new medication. I feel stronger, better and more... whats the word... motivated for my days. I'm busy, which I enjoy. I hate being bored. I also find that I have a stronger ability to focus. Which in my opinion is good. I can actually get my work done now. I have more energy too, so I can stay more active during the day than I felt like I used too. People have been giving me a lot of compliments of my improved mood and other things. I feel myself changing.... not that I'm complaining, but I like who I am... and I honestly don't really wanna change too much. But I suppose we will see what the result is.

"You can either run from it... or, learn from it"