So, I know its been a few months, and its been quiet, and I don't particularly remember my last post... But, after recent research (yes I went and read it) it makes me smile.
So to fill you all in, even though I'm sure no one reads this blog.
A month ago, I met an amazing woman, who now sits in a library chair to my right, reading a book while I talk about her here. Shes about 5 feet tall, long brownish blond hair, and the most tantalizing blue/green eyes. I can't get enough of her. Tomorrow night is the one month anniversary of our relationship. Who knows if its going to last, tomorrow is another day. To be honest? I'm scared. Shes the most amazing thing that has happened to me. In the past month, she has stayed with me in my room each night, except for spring break, of course, and I can't get enough of it. The L word.... yea its slipped once or twice lately. Shelby has 'pegged us' saying we are in love... I can't say I don't, but I don't know if I do. That is a rickety bridge I am unprepared to cross, but I will if I find it. Maybe I have. I have no idea. Its mighty quick to say it otherwise.
ANYWAY.
I wake up in the morning, and the first thing on my mind is her name, her eyes. Instantly I wake up and think what a wonderful day it is just to have this beautiful woman in my arms. It feels almost wrong to not wake up with her in my arms now, spring break alone was hard. I wanted her there. She deals with my bad habits, messiness, and general 'don't give a shit' attitude. She deals with my PDA(public display of affection) insecurities, and most of all, my pitiful taste in country music of late. What else can I tell you about her? She's smart, funny, loves my quirky state of mind, and most of all, shes beautiful.
God, The night we got together. That alone deserves its own post, its too much and so much feeling to post with all the rest of these crazy feelings. Hell, every night we spend together deserves its own post. Each night is completely different. I don't know what to say anymore about her. Shes perfect in her own right.
Two nights ago, she told me she thought she was falling in love with me. I don't know what to say to it. I don't know how to respond... I think I am, I don't know. It scares me, falling in love again, but I know I can't hide from it forever. Her company, her presence, its changing my world and how its revolving. Finding her was an accident in its own right, and falling for her, well... Life's too short not to take risks right?
Each night falling asleep in her arms, every morning looking for her touch because I lost it in the night. It seems almost foreign not to have it around me. I almost can't sleep without it. I wake up and my first thought is "I hope she didn't leave in the middle of the night... I hope its all not been a bad dream". My biggest fear is this is all an amazing dream that I am going to wake up and its all not happening. That it was all my imagination. I hope its not, pray, its not a dream.
I've done more risks and had more adventures with her than I have with anyone else. I can definitely say this girl has changed my life. Hell, its made my name linger on the mouths of VWIL and the rest of the campus. If I hadn't of met her, I would be quietly sitting here, probably asleep, homework done, and ready for tomorrow. Tired and lonely. Now? I can happily say I am content to stay up till two am every night, so long as she is in my arms and shes here with me. I hope this never ends.
Night y'all.
A happy person :)
