Broken Hearted Memories

So... to get to the point. I'm single yet again. No more boyfriend. Long story short, he became the obsessive controlling jealous type.

Anyway.

Otherwise, success! My thesis is complete! I'm home for the holiday, and I am enjoying my time. :)

Hit me up.

We Owned the Night

Three Months Later...

Long time, no blog. Sorry. Its been a busy and eventful start to the school year. Its nearly two months after my last post, so I hope you understand.

To catch everyone up to speed, school started, from the end of Cadre week and Matriculation, to Meet your Calic, and my first of the last Monday Morning formation of the year. My nULLies, Tina Duckworth and Jordan Berg, are awesome. Two great kids, really motivated, and just like me, even though I'm sure they don't know it yet.

This is us at meet your calic. I think its gonna be an awesome year with them. We've already had Greens Week, and I made them t-shirts and gave them nicknames, had them greeting with little guns and made them say "Freeze! You have the right to give me my green pants!" One of my poor nullies was sick as a dog all week and couldn't even participate in apple day! :(

Speaking of which, Apple eve/day was awesome. The Senior Class of 2012 won four consecutive years of Dodge ball! Undefeated and Reigning Champs! Then at Apple Day, I got pied in the face three times, which sucked. Never again. I'd take the dunk tank over that ANY day.

Now, its the week after... and three weeks and counting till my thesis is due, and I am clueless on how to start. Fall Break starts on Thursday, and I'm going to Roanoke to my best friends house, and my haven. Plan of Action: Thesis. All weekend long. Period end of story.

As for me and the Boy... well thats a whole different story. I love him. Its been the best three months since we got together. He tells me he loves me every day, calls me every Friday he's not with me, respects my homework time. He's just the best. He was here this past weekend, and met all the friends, and so far as I can tell, hes approved of :) but who knows with my friends. Good News, He's quitting chewing and smoking, so things will be awesome. I need to work on him just a little more, and then things will be all good.

Otherwise, life is good. I've got an amazing boyfriend, great friends, and everything I want in my life :)

The world is turning out alright.

Night world

End of Summer? No way...

So... It is now august 23rd... and I return to MBC in two days. I'm not sure what to think about it. So far, this summer has been eventful. I have had four jobs, all of them didn't work out. My car decided to go fooey on me and die, and a boyfriend from seventh grade decided to reappear in my life. Ten years later, the infatuation remains, along with the playfulness, and everything else that we did when we were kids. I missed him. Going back to school is going to be hard on us. had my little vacation to Roanoke, which i head back to Richmond in the morning, which im not sure i want to go just yet. But oh well. Its life.

I thought i had something to write, but it seems to have left me.

Night

A couple of days late again, but who cares?

So, I know its been a bit since my last blog post, I've not really thought about it much.

The past week has been filled with class and other adventures, and aside from not working, spending a lot of time chilling and relaxing. I've been reading like i used to back when I was a kid. Staying up a majority of the night reading this amazing fiction series by David Eddings. Thanks Mia for getting me hooked. I've already got the Tamuli waiting to be read once I'm done with the Elenium. Other than that, not a lot. Mom is off to New York next week for a lovely dancing filled vacation, and I'm jealous, I want to go. But, I sadly have to work and finish my homework for both my classes.

Summer is half over... in a little over a month, I'm 21.... crazy. 21.... my god its so unrealistic I still can't believe it. Then ten days later... wham. Back to school for my senior year.

Its all happening so fast!!!!

A little late... and Memories

So... sorry this post is a few days late. This weekend, was... well. Boring, and honestly. I completely forgot to post something. Eh, Better late than never.

I've only worked one day so far this week... (far less than I have been) and I am only scheduled for tomorrow morning, and after that, I'm resigning, and I pray that Walmart calls me for orientation soon. I can't wait forever.

Class is next week, and I'm pretty excited, although probably not prepared at all. I still have yet to get my book shipped in. >.< Which is getting quite annoying.

Not much to say I guess. I've been pretty busy, aside from the past few days off.

Well, other than that.

I'm probably the happiest person on earth right now.

So. Night!

P.S. 6/29/10 - Rest In Peace Michael J. Ryan  
                                                           ---- My Uncle
                             - I'm going to get this ring in Honor of my Uncle

Another week... Time's flying

So... What week is this? Shit. All I know its the end of June, and that means summer is half over. Joy. Not really. I don't know why, but I don't want summer to end. Hell, I didn't even want it to start. But, we all can't get what we want right? Its crazy that in a week and a half, it will be July. God, July. Classes, family, hecticness, work... I don't know what to do anymore. Can someone give me an excuse to take a weekend off of work? To get away from it and here so I can breath? Heh, its time to grow up Sara Jane.

Anyway, It looks like I might have a Job number 3, depending on how things go, it might end up replacing another one... just not sure which one yet. I don't know. I'm just glad, and grateful, to have another job, most people dont have a single job. But who knows.

So I'm keeping this post short b.c I'm not really in the mood to type today.

So. Night.

Emerson Drive - I Should Be Sleeping

Week Three.... Rain checks and Illnesses

So, It is the end of week three into summer. I've decided to try and keep up with the Saturday or (in this case) Sunday post at the end of my week. Good way to keep on track for summer I suppose?

Anyway. Today was probably... the second to worst day of my week. Today, I get sent home from work because I get sick. Lovely. Not only to i feel like shit, I feel even more like shit for having to leave. I hate, hate, hate, hate, hate... did i say hate?... calling in sick to work or having to leave work because I am sick. As for the rest of the week? Well, things were fine, until Wends. When come to find out, my driver side tire has an inch long cut in it... and was going flat, consistently and constantly. Great right? Not really. Not only do I NOT have the money to put a new tire on my car... Mom did. So now I owe her not only for the two tires... but for the past 6 months I've not been able to pay car insurance. Stupid doctor bills... that I still have yet to finish paying off. Ugh. Adult life sucks. Just sayin'

So, that was the worst day of my week. Otherwise, my whole week I spent working and busy up until Friday. When I save 395 big ones, and got a pair of $415 dollar glasses, for 20 bucks. Talk about bang for your buck. Thank god dads insurance is so beast! But primarily, I spent Friday on the couch, sleeping, and blind, due to the Eye Doctor, and that damn dilation test. Talk about MIGRANE. Ugh. Painful friday it was. Saturday was better. And then today. Wow. Talk about feeling miserable and lazy. I slept most of the day away, and I'm just now starting to feel better. Which I'm glad. Off to Summer Conference 1 tomorrow, and a busy day in D.C.

I'm sure your wondering about the Rain-check part of the title. Well. I was supposed to go on a date, not this past week, but the week before, and he cancelled, but wanted me to go out to a party last night at 11pm till 2am... when we both had work at 6am. Hahah. Not happening. Plus to find out I get sick? Shit. Think again. Bed time is 11pm on a good night. And if i have to be up a 0430... Damn straight bedtime is 10pm, with the lights OUT. I run a tight sleeping schedule. The only person allowed to break that is Samantha.... and that is if i actually wake up to her texts.

Speaking of the Devil herself. Samantha. I really don't know what to tell ya... She is back in my life, and honestly, I'm loving it. I love the girl, nothing's gonna change that. Three years without her, three years away. I will see her this year. I don't care if I have to kidnap her, I will do it. Just to spend one more day with her.

Well, that is all for tonight. Time to close down and get ready for tomorrow, and sleep. Sleep is good.

Night world.... Oh, and sorry about the pictures... well. Not really. But I just felt like pictures today.

Week two Summer 2011

Ah... another week gone. It still feels like I just left Baldwin for the summer a week ago. Unbelievable. Constantly working, not that I'm complaining, it helps to pass the time. I just wish I was making a little more money than I am now. But, its all worth the effort I'm putting into it. Who know's maybe I'll get lucky this week and get that 5K sale for Vector and get that Champions Reception at SC1 on the 13th. Ah, I hope so. If i can get the 7.5K, I get that K-bar. Anyone willing to help me out? Buy an Ultimate Set? Its worth it! I promise you that. Personally.

Anyway. Back to the point. Week two. over. done. Gone. Ciao. Finite! Its crazy. I had a date... It was cancelled. He had to wait till payday :/ I appreciate the honesty, but seriously... the night of? Dude, I will need you to work on that. Otherwise, Summer... well. It by far, is turning out to be the best summer of my life. If it continues on like this. Busy most of the time, hanging out with friends and meeting a lot of new people and making new friends. Got a tad bit of a lecture on how I need to let 'someone know where I am at' when I decide to go out like I did after my team meeting on wends. Seriously, bro, I love you. But I am not a child anymore. I know you get to play the big brother, and you like that role, and I may be the baby of the family, but I can take care of myself. I was in safe company, and someone (maybe not you) knew where I was. Like my friends said at dinner one night, I'm so badass, nobody is about to rape me ~quoting Sara Hodges here~ Lmao. That was a funny dinner conversation... given I wasn't listening till that line. Hahha.

Otherwise... Not much to write tonight. I'm in a pretty decent mood, and I'm looking for a good Saturday off. So... Goodnight world. And maybe, just maybe, this next week will be rockin!

Summer... Week One

So, Its May 28th, almost the 29th, and there is only a few days left in this wonderful spring month. Spring... Right, the thing that is supposed to be kinda warm outside, and chilly at night. Nope, not in the wonderful city of Richmond. it is Hot as Blazes out there, I mean, the heat, I can adjust to.... the Humidity... Now that I have a problem with. It is the humidity that makes this weather so unbearable! It is a wonder how we have survived in this mess! I blame the city life and all the cars! I want to go back to my valley, where there is the mountain breeze, the cool rivers, and best of all, the view. Here in Richmond, its flat basically... I mean, there are the hills, but its not my Mountains. I like to be able to perch myself up high, and look down at all the busy ants (people) at work. It makes me feel free almost. Tonight, I was driving home, and the sunset was so pretty. I wished I could have done that. I wanted to find a hill, overlooking a clear field or pond, hop up on the roof of my car, and just watch the sun go down. I have a feeling, soon, very soon, I am going to need an escape and do exactly that. Its only the first Saturday of 'summer' vacation, and I am already killer busy, and trying to find time to even breath is hard. Not that I am complaining, but finding two jobs within days of each other? Both of their training times are already falling over each other, and its like.... wait.... time... breath... what?                      Today felt like the biggest scramble... but it was honestly the most organized... Tomorrow though... That one is going to be rough. But its going to have to be worked through, and I will do it. I'm scared about my classes though. I'm struggling to keep up in the once class that I already have assignments for, and that only makes me wonder what I'm going to have to do when my week long seminar class rolls into town in July and takes up my whole week. Man, finding time to be myself, and be social, much less personal time... is going to be hard. But... who am I to complain right? I have a summer job, two none the less, unlike some, and its something I shouldn't take for granted. Ah... the lovely lessons learned in life. Aren't they beautiful?   Well, I have work at 0600, so I'm hitting the sack, because I need sleep before a 0430 wake up... Its been a while since i had to be up THAT early.

Hello World....

Dream Big

DREAM BIG

If there were ever a time to dare,
to make a difference,
to embark on something worth doing,
it is now.
Not for any grand cause, necessarily --
but for something that tugs at your heart,
something that's your aspiration,
something that's your dream.

You owe it to yourself to make your days here count.
Have fun.
Dig deep. 
Stretch.

Dream big.

Know though, that things worth doing seldom come easy.
There will be good days.
And there will be bad days.
There will be times when you want to turn around,
pack it back up, and call it quits.
Those times tell you that you are pushing yourself,
That you are not afraid to learn by trying.

Persist.

Because with an idea,
determination, and the right tools,
you can do great things.
Let your instincts,
your intellect,
and your heart guide you.

Trust.

Believe in the incredible power of the human mind.
Of doing something that makes a difference.
Of working hard.
Of laughing and hoping.
Of lazy afternoons.
Of lasting friends.
Of all the things that will cross your path this year.

The start of something new brings the hope of something great.
Anything is possible.
There is only one you.
And you will pass this way only once.

Do it right.

~Author Unknown

A few Book Excerpts to read

I AM ONLY ONE

I am only one, but I am one.
I can't do everything, but I can do something.
And what I can do, I ought to do.
And what I ought to do, by the grace of God, I shall do.

Edward Everett Hale



"It is not enough to get things done; they must be done right." ~ Arthur T. Hadley



"As you endure this divine discipline, remember that God is treating you as his own children. Who ever heard of a child who is never disciplined by its father?... No discipline is enjoyable while it is happening -- it's painful! But afterward there will be a peaceful harvest of right living for those who are trained this way." ~ Hebrews 12:7, 11



YOU ARE AT THE TOP WHEN...

1. You have made friends with your past, and you are focused on the present and optimistic about your future.
2. You have the love of friends and the respect of your enemies.
3. You are filled with faith, hope, and love, and you live without anger, greed, guilt, envy, or thoughts of revenge.
4.You know that failure to stand up for what is morally right is the prelude to being the victim of what is criminally wrong
5. You are mature enough to delay gratification and shift your focus from your rights to your responsibilities.
6. You love the unlovable, give hope to the hopeless, friendship to the friendless, and encouragement to the discouraged.
7. You know that a success doesn't make you and that a failure doesn't break you.
8. You can look back in forgiveness, forward in hope, down in compassion, and up with gratitude.
9. You are secure in who you are, so you are at peace with God and in fellowship with humanity.
10. You clearly understand that yesterday ended last night, that today is a brand-new day, and it is yours!
11. You know that "he who would be the greatest among you must become servant of all"
12. You are pleasant to the grouchy, courteous to the rude, and generous to the needy, because you know that the long-term benefits of giving and forgiving outweigh the short-term benefits of receiving.
13. You recognize, confess, develop, and use your God-given physical, mental and spiritual abilities to the glory of God and for the benefit of humankind.
14. You stand in front of the Creator of the universe, and he says to you, "Well done, my good and faithful servant."


And Finally....


Excellence

Going far beyond the call of duty,
Doing more than others expect, 
This is what excellence is all about!
And it comes from striving,
Maintaining the highest standards,
Looking at the smallest detail,
And going the extra mile.
Excellence means doing your very best.
In everything! In every way.

~Jack Johnson

April showers, bring May flowers... or is it march?

So... it's finally April.

Less than two weeks, and its Finals, three weeks and its may term... two months... Change of command and the end of Jr year.... Summer comes around, and three online courses, a job, and whatever else trouble I can get into... or stay out of.

I'm ready for May term (aka Play Term"). Its only so close... My last history class till Senior sem, and then I'm done with my major. Folk Dance, my last fun class till Maymay leaves :( I don't like it.

The sad part of my years end... I don't have a vacation. I'm taking three summer courses, that start almost immediately after the years end.

I don't know what to do about it anymore... its all so scary.

Spring Break... In the beginning of March?

So... its Thursday, and our spring break is already half way over! I wish it wasn't. It is also raining today... How nasty. I would mind the sun being out, and it being warm, with a little breeze, then I would go lay out in the lawn, read my books for my paper, and relax my day away. Oh but no... it has to rain today, which makes the ground soggy, and makes every girl in her right mind want to curl up and sleep her day away! Makes you want to sing "Raining on Sunday" by Keith Urban.

Whats new in my life? Hah, well, shit. Did I tell you all about what happened with PEG in January? I don't think I did. Well, to sum up, I wasn't allowed to have my friendships with them, because apparently I was harassing them? Yeah, complete Bullshit. Just saying. But to finish my lovely sum up, Someone advocated for my cause after finding out, and the punishment was lifted, but I have been "cautioned to remain at a distance". Like I care anymore.
Oh, and Softball? Yeah, screw that too... got booted off last month. So much for that.
Another thing... I have a Stalker. I pray it hasn't found my blog yet, but who the hell knows anymore. I'm tired of it all, and what its causing me. Its just another repeat of high school.
Samantha is back in VA. I had planned to go visit her today, but I still have yet to receive a phone call. So, who knows if that is going to happen either. I really hope she does, but who knows about hopes anymore...

Nowadays its work and work and work. School, school, school. Thats all I do.

Speaking of which. Back to work on that paper of mine :)

The Results are in!

Hey everyone! I hope your all's Monday's have been well. Mine has been pretty good. Its been a short weekend, but eventful. I spent Friday night out with the girls, which was nice, I needed it. I may have not have said much and wasn't very social, but I didn't need to be alone. I spent my night crafting the nULL classes class guideon, and presented it to them on Saturday after fakeout. Then I left for home to meet mom n me's new puppy Zena! She's so precious! I've already started basic training with her. Mainly working with the standard command of sit and No. No, so she understands what is not right to do. And Sit, well... it was a work in progress so that she understands the concept of treats. She's a fast learner, even at a young age. It's great.
Found out leadership for senior year today, and I got what I wanted. nC and HC. I'm content with that. I finally got nC. :) HC is mine again, because of the work that i've done this year with it, and the movement forward. Its all progress nowadays. Well, I figured a quick blog, now off to bed :)

Another day, Another Dollar

Well, Its been a few weeks since my last post. Things have been really busy. Especially with softball now. I've been working hard to keep up with my school-work, classes, and even participating in softball.

Softball has been great. I feel like I'm learning something, working hard, and I really enjoy it. It's tough, but I like a good challenge. This is a challenge I feel I can compete with. I know most of the basic's and, i suppose you could call it theory, behind the game. I just need to fine tune my skills into that set versus my knowledge in baseball. I feel I can be good in it if I applied myself properly.

As for me personally? My moods have changed, I reflect back on my days mostly, and I find I'm not complaining as much as I did once, probably also a big thanks to the new medication. I feel stronger, better and more... whats the word... motivated for my days. I'm busy, which I enjoy. I hate being bored. I also find that I have a stronger ability to focus. Which in my opinion is good. I can actually get my work done now. I have more energy too, so I can stay more active during the day than I felt like I used too. People have been giving me a lot of compliments of my improved mood and other things. I feel myself changing.... not that I'm complaining, but I like who I am... and I honestly don't really wanna change too much. But I suppose we will see what the result is.

"You can either run from it... or, learn from it"

New year, New thing, New me?

Hello 2011,

Sorry I've not blogged since almost November, but Its been a mad busy holiday season and well, a mad busy new year already. Hardly any snow, and that depresses me. I need some snow to survive! I want to go sledding!  Already been in "trouble" this new year, except depending on your definition of trouble, I've been blamed for crimes I did not commit, and in this being so, I've been restricted from some things, but in my own interest. I am not looking for a fight or to cause any trouble, and I will follow these precautions that have been set forth for my own protection, because I WILL NOT, let some petty BS ruin some of the best things that have ever happened to me. Hate to break it to ya, but this won't break me down. What doesn't kill me makes me stronger, right? So its time to fall back on my amazing "I don't give a shit" nonchalant attitude and just go about my daily business like I always do. Back to other news, and good news it is, the new thing in my life is now my "Go hard, or Go home" ideal, i suppose if you want to consider it an ideal. I've recently tried out for the Softball Team here at MBC, and after a "trial" week to see how I do, it's been made official. Number 16! Photos are tomorrow (i'll try an post some if i can, but otherwise, ya'll SOL till the bluestocking comes out next year.) and I'm excited to get in uniform again. Practice has been great, I'm slowly working my way into the team and bonding with them, making new friends, and just learning softball. Its a big difference from baseball. But, its an NCAA Division III sport, Collegiate level, and I made the team! Seriously, that is an accomplishment. With it, I think it will help me turn some things in my life around, and be better for me in the long run. Otherwise, here is to a great year, a great season, and to all my true friends in this world, because I know you all would never hurt me no matter what!

Night!